There's a reason for things. Who ever knew that before you or I were even born, God had already begun to put this family together and little Kaelee Grace was already meant to come and touch us all. She was taken, and left so many of us behind, especially her twin sister Kara, who would have to learn how to live life without her other half. So many things have happened to so many of us because of all this. It has caused me to change my way of thinking about alot of things. We all have grown in many areas but especially the area of "love". Love thy neighbor is more real to me than ever before. There has been more love poured out to us than we could contain in our minds and in our spirits. We have been overwhelmed!! Ephesians 3:20 "God is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine according to his power that is able to work within us," and He used countless people to share their love with us.
I don't have money or I would give it. I don't have youth and vitality or I would use it to come help you with anything that's needed. What I do have is a heart that still beats, a love for my God, my family and those around me, and an ability to share the things I have learned because of all God has allowed in my life. We are also very aware of how much people loved Kaelee and how much she loved them. She was one unique little kid, not like anyone else. She would want us to share our stories and God's love with everyone we know because she is expecting us ALL to be in Heaven with her you see. We are all better off because she passed through our lives. She was a miracle. My whole life has been set up to have the priveledge of caring for my family, and finally for Kara and Kaelee. (I say finally because I'm not doing this again, raising more grandkids that is. I hope the Good Lord didn't see that last part).
Why me God,
There were times when I questioned "Why me Lord"? Not because of self pity but because it seemed there were other people that were more qualified in this world to take on these things so "Why me Lord? Do you remember I already raised a family? God!!! Do you know I am in my sixties and that will put me in my 70's when they are old enough to go off on their own. Lord WHY do you think Glenn and I can do this?" Practical issues were facing us here. I knew we had to do it, but I didn't feel prepared. Until I thought things out, I wasn't aware that God had been preparing me my whole life for a time such as this.
Thoughts began flooding in. I had to take a look at where I had come from in order to know who I had become and where I may be going while I'm still here on this earth. I had to look back so I could believe it was truly us who was being prepared for what was going to happen in our lives and that the children we recieved would be happy and feel safe and know that it was by God's design they come to Glenn and I. Glenn never spends as much time analizing things as I do. He comes from a family of 11 kids, has now raised 7, what's one or two more. I became the crazy one for awhile. (Jeremiah 29:11a ..."For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. "....................................